I am currently beginning a new venture, a new radio talk show. I was co-host on a show for a year and learned a lot of the skill set I needed to that will see me successfully into this show, I hope. As I work out the details, I find myself experiencing some nervousness. The show that I am currently working on is about Anxiety and Depression.
There are many things that we think of when we consider anxiety. As I said, I am nervous about the show, but that kind of “anxious” is not what we refer to when we discuss anxiety as a concern that often leads us to the doctor for help.
Anxiety and depression are often considered “cousins.” They are closely related, but don’t reside at the same address. I had come to realize several years ago that I had suffered for years from a high functioning level of anxiety. I had never attributed it to anxiety, but that is exactly what it proved to be. I will share some of those qualities with you and maybe you, too, will see yourself.
Many times I would get an invitation to do something or go somewhere that sounded enjoyable but I would turn down the opportunity, not really knowing why I had done so. I would blame it on not wanting to be gone from home that long or not wanting to commit to making myself available during that time.
I rewind conversations in my head over and over again. In every situation (including those conversations) I choose the worst scenario as my most prevalent thought. I believe I am to blame if I make a comment or text and someone doesn’t reply right away.. I begin wondering what I did or said that might have upset them. I begin beating myself up and obsessing about whether or not I upset the other party. I often obsess over trivial things that other people don’t even notice.
Even though I often go to bed late and wake up early, I find myself too mentally and physically exhausted to get out of bed.
These are all signs of high functioning anxiety. As I read more and more on the topic, I realized how fortunate I was to have access to the information so that when I found myself constantly questioning my actions I could simply stop that runaway train of thought and refocus.
Learn to know yourself and as you see negative patterns repeating in your life, begin the process of deciding which thoughts you are going to accept and which ones you will let go of. In doing that, you will find that your level of anxiety goes down and you will also begin letting go of those behaviors that do not serve you well either.
Something To Ponder